five years...

i've been thinking a lot about writing lately. i mean, a lot-a lot. like, the "i-think-i-might-want-to-go-back-to-school-so-i-can-write-more-and-better-stuff" type of thinking about writing. but i've been a bit shaky on the follow-through. so for now, i figure it's likely wiser (and a helluva lot cheaper) to just revive this crazy blog.

i came here tonight to check things out and update the look a bit (you like? i'm way-into google fonts these days), but then i realized something remarkable: i started this blog EXACTLY five years ago tonight.

my mind = totally blown.

it's blown because for many, many reasons that i'll likely soon blab about, i've been doing a remarkable amount of reflection lately. much of that reflection has actually brought me back to a warm fuzzy land of...well, a land of about five years ago. i had no idea at the time, but it has proven to be an immensely important season in my life. in my becoming.

you'll see over to the right there is a short list of other bloggers i followed back then. these folks were for the most part, my best friends. they were regulars in my imaginary sitcom of life. for some crazy reason, none of us have kept up our blogging. and for some crazy reason, most of them are not in my life now.

i mourn that fact from time to time, but more often than the mourning, i actually look back with gratitude and fondness for the time we spent together. five years ago.

dang. five years.

five years ago, i had a pretty cool job selling real estate.

five years ago, i was moving into a killer apartment in downtown kc.

five years ago, i couldn't go anywhere in this city without running into someone i knew.

most importantly, five years ago tonight i was smack in the middle of learning for the first time what Grace truly means.

since then, i've started writing songs. lots of them. i've run two marathons (wut-wut!) i've dared to follow my heart in very real and tangible ways. i've risked. i've loved. i've learned to cuss. (more than i should). i've moved...two and three-quarters times. i've made new friends who made me feel like i have another home in this world. i've been lonely. i've had my heart broken. i've met (and married) my husband. i now have a dog.

what's funniest to me is this: right now, i have even less of an idea what will happen next in this story than i did five years ago.

sounds like a good time to take up writing, n'est-ce pas?

the name of this blog is "in medias res"--in the middle of things. thanks for tuning in...we'll now rejoin the story already in progress....