sometimes i trick myself into forgetting how amazing my friends are.
probably one of my greatest strengths and weaknesses relationally is a tendency to place high expectations on my friends. i firmly believe that those who love you the most will urge you toward a higher standard and respect you enough to expect great things from you. the danger here lies in managing the inevitable conflict that arises when friends (who, in case you didn't know, are human!) disappoint you.
such has been the case in my life lately. and as a bona-fide ENFJ (emphasis on J for Judging), i can get pretty down about this...to the point where i was somewhat despairing this week that a) i will never figure out how to love people through conflict and b) certain people who are very near and dear to my heart are never going grow up and desire accountability.
oh the lies, and the sneaky Liar who wants us to believe them!
i have been proven wrong on both counts. i'll not relish the details here, but i have had a series of truly redeeming conversations with said friends in just the past few hours. i am so blessed to be learning how conflict really does breed intimacy. and that together, my sweet little community of friends is slowly sharpening one another.
thank god for community.
Tuesday, May 1, 2007
Wednesday, February 28, 2007
insomniac
i should know better than to make a run to the roasterie for a cup of coffee at 6 o'clock in the evening.
*sigh*
the good (maybe?) news is that i had work to do, which makes the wide-awake-at-2a.m.-ness a little more tolerable...that, and the fact that after a string of frustrating workdays that is a good several weeks long, i finally had a breakthrough of sorts today. good things are happening. business is taking a turn for the better. i finished the day today with my first contract in several months...the cold spell has broken and i know i have a paycheck on the horizon!
it's been so discouraging these past few weeks...working my tail off and still having things fall through, so i am so undeniably grateful for this bit of encouragement.
i'm not sure why i'm blogging this bit of semi-trivial information...i guess so you can rejoice with me :) and i guess because it's late and i'm wound up from good business and good coffee. happy wednesday, everyone!
*sigh*
the good (maybe?) news is that i had work to do, which makes the wide-awake-at-2a.m.-ness a little more tolerable...that, and the fact that after a string of frustrating workdays that is a good several weeks long, i finally had a breakthrough of sorts today. good things are happening. business is taking a turn for the better. i finished the day today with my first contract in several months...the cold spell has broken and i know i have a paycheck on the horizon!
it's been so discouraging these past few weeks...working my tail off and still having things fall through, so i am so undeniably grateful for this bit of encouragement.
i'm not sure why i'm blogging this bit of semi-trivial information...i guess so you can rejoice with me :) and i guess because it's late and i'm wound up from good business and good coffee. happy wednesday, everyone!
Wednesday, February 21, 2007
a blog for everything...
after weeks of doug hassling me for not blogging on blogger, i thought i'd break the silence. briefly.
first of all, i've been blogging...but it's been on my myspace account. and i've been too lazy to copy it here as promised.
sorry.
secondly, i just wanted to post this site for you to peruse and discuss:
www.prayforcastro.com
pretty interesting. valid, i think. and i really like his response to the first (brave) person to comment and suggest that castro could never be saved, on account of all the bad things he's done. it all fits nicely with alot of what i've been mulling over in my mind these past few weeks and months.
let me know what you think.
first of all, i've been blogging...but it's been on my myspace account. and i've been too lazy to copy it here as promised.
sorry.
secondly, i just wanted to post this site for you to peruse and discuss:
www.prayforcastro.com
pretty interesting. valid, i think. and i really like his response to the first (brave) person to comment and suggest that castro could never be saved, on account of all the bad things he's done. it all fits nicely with alot of what i've been mulling over in my mind these past few weeks and months.
let me know what you think.
Friday, January 12, 2007
two weeks in: welcome, 2007!
well, we are not even two weeks into 2007 and already this year has brought with it some interesting surprises. a fantastic green coat that i found at TJ Maxx for $40...a proposal from a dark, intriguing stranger...and a trip to the emergency room with my new roommate.
no time for stories now, but here are the morals to the stories:
1. (cheap) green coats are dead sexy.
2. apparently, green coats really are dead sexy.
3. never practice your knife tricks while home alone.
sweet sassy molassey! beloved 2007, what other delights have you up your sleeve?! what wonders do you behold?!
...in the movies, we have leading ladies and we have the best friend. You, I can tell, are a leading lady, but for some reason, you're behaving like the best friend.
-eli wallach as arthur abbott in the holiday
no time for stories now, but here are the morals to the stories:
1. (cheap) green coats are dead sexy.
2. apparently, green coats really are dead sexy.
3. never practice your knife tricks while home alone.
sweet sassy molassey! beloved 2007, what other delights have you up your sleeve?! what wonders do you behold?!
...in the movies, we have leading ladies and we have the best friend. You, I can tell, are a leading lady, but for some reason, you're behaving like the best friend.
-eli wallach as arthur abbott in the holiday
Monday, December 18, 2006
fun with picasa
so, after turning my back on myspace and starting another blog on blogger, i discovered this great tool called picasa. it's totally free and has helped me do wicked-cool things with some of my pictures. have some half-assed photo software that came with my computer, but in order to really do anything with my photos, they wanted me to buy an upgrade.
granted, this isn't quite as much fun as if i had photoshop, but i'm still doing some really cool work...and it is FREE. and it interfaces with my google on-line photo album so i can immediately upload my masterpieces and share them with you!
so without further ado, here is my first study. i'm quite proud of it. i took these fun pictures of people dancing at winfield last september. there was this great celtic folkish band called the david munnelly band. they were wonderful and there was this guy....
who was not david munnelly, but he was in the band and he was beautiful and made all of the women swoon. seriously. well, in this shot he was singing some heart-breakingly lovely song about his homeland or a dead woman or something (you know how the irish are) and many people got up and started waltzing. it was...magical. it was a cool evening after a hot day and the warm kansas wind had died down to a gentle breeze. there was this lovely music and then...dancing. magical.
so i took these cool photos that, though i knew they were too dark, i also knew they had potential to be worked into something very special. so here is one of the originals....
from there, i had a little fun this afternoon. check it out.
this is after i cropped the random guy out of the right side and had some fun with the contrast and light.
this one has focal color/black and white.
this is with the filtered black and white.
sepia, of course.
and this is the soft focus and some more warming of the color. i really love this one because it looks to me like the couple is dancing as though the entire world has disappeared and it's just the two of them...as the jilted cowboy lover looks on.
you gotta love a dark, jilted cowboy lover.
so i hope you enjoyed this little bit of fun with me. i'm sure there will be more hot photos to come...
granted, this isn't quite as much fun as if i had photoshop, but i'm still doing some really cool work...and it is FREE. and it interfaces with my google on-line photo album so i can immediately upload my masterpieces and share them with you!
so without further ado, here is my first study. i'm quite proud of it. i took these fun pictures of people dancing at winfield last september. there was this great celtic folkish band called the david munnelly band. they were wonderful and there was this guy....
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who was not david munnelly, but he was in the band and he was beautiful and made all of the women swoon. seriously. well, in this shot he was singing some heart-breakingly lovely song about his homeland or a dead woman or something (you know how the irish are) and many people got up and started waltzing. it was...magical. it was a cool evening after a hot day and the warm kansas wind had died down to a gentle breeze. there was this lovely music and then...dancing. magical.
so i took these cool photos that, though i knew they were too dark, i also knew they had potential to be worked into something very special. so here is one of the originals....
from there, i had a little fun this afternoon. check it out.
this is after i cropped the random guy out of the right side and had some fun with the contrast and light.
this one has focal color/black and white.
this is with the filtered black and white.
sepia, of course.
and this is the soft focus and some more warming of the color. i really love this one because it looks to me like the couple is dancing as though the entire world has disappeared and it's just the two of them...as the jilted cowboy lover looks on.
you gotta love a dark, jilted cowboy lover.
so i hope you enjoyed this little bit of fun with me. i'm sure there will be more hot photos to come...
Monday, December 4, 2006
me and drew barrymore...we're SO hot right now.
see for yourself!
i think maybe i'm spending too much time online.
i think maybe i'm spending too much time online.
Thursday, November 30, 2006
we now join our regular programming already in progress...
welcome to my new blog home!
after twelve-too-many disappearing blog posts on myspace, i've decided to venture over here to blogger. i've toyed with the idea for awhile now, but to be honest, it's a bit intimidating on two counts. number one: all my friends on blogger are way cooler and wittier than i could dream of being these days. number two: the naming of the blog. all of you have such lovely and fitting names for your blog. so dashing. so sexy. so...you. so i thought, whatever will i come up with? but tonight i had an epiphany and sha-zam! a blog was born!
i still remember remember learning the term in medias res. for those of you who don't know, it is a latin term that means in the middle of things. i first learned about it in mr. cappello's sophomore honors english class, back in the day when i was a very good, very promising creative writer. when cappello introduced this idea of in medias res and how so many of the great classical works put this technique into action, my life was changed. i wanted to start every writing assignment in medias res--i loved the idea that the stories we were reading (or writing) had gone on for infinite time before and would continue indefinitely thereafter. we were just getting in on a snapshot--a season in the lives of the characters.
and so i apply the term to this blog in a number of ways. for starters, my blog is already in progress over at myspace. also, in the grander scheme of things, i try to keep the perspective that we are all works in progress. it might not always be cheeky or poetic, but i'll do what i can to share some snapshots from the journey.
"...i am confident of this: that he who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion in Christ Jesus..."
philippians 1:6
after twelve-too-many disappearing blog posts on myspace, i've decided to venture over here to blogger. i've toyed with the idea for awhile now, but to be honest, it's a bit intimidating on two counts. number one: all my friends on blogger are way cooler and wittier than i could dream of being these days. number two: the naming of the blog. all of you have such lovely and fitting names for your blog. so dashing. so sexy. so...you. so i thought, whatever will i come up with? but tonight i had an epiphany and sha-zam! a blog was born!
i still remember remember learning the term in medias res. for those of you who don't know, it is a latin term that means in the middle of things. i first learned about it in mr. cappello's sophomore honors english class, back in the day when i was a very good, very promising creative writer. when cappello introduced this idea of in medias res and how so many of the great classical works put this technique into action, my life was changed. i wanted to start every writing assignment in medias res--i loved the idea that the stories we were reading (or writing) had gone on for infinite time before and would continue indefinitely thereafter. we were just getting in on a snapshot--a season in the lives of the characters.
and so i apply the term to this blog in a number of ways. for starters, my blog is already in progress over at myspace. also, in the grander scheme of things, i try to keep the perspective that we are all works in progress. it might not always be cheeky or poetic, but i'll do what i can to share some snapshots from the journey.
"...i am confident of this: that he who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion in Christ Jesus..."
philippians 1:6
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